The Kingdom of God

Scripture:
"To these He also presented Himself alive after His suffering, by many convincing proofs, appearing to them over a period of forty days and speaking of the things concerning the kingdom of God" (Acts 1:3)

Last Wednesday I had the opportunity of doing something I have not done in a long, long time. I taught a Bible Study class in Spanish. It was really cool. We have been going to a Spanish speaking Four Square church which is only a couple of blocks away from our house and they have an English service at 9:30 am on Sunday. My wife only speaks English so she had been going to church on Wednesdays near where she works in Anaheim and on Wednesday I go to the Spanish Bible study and prayer meeting.

Recently began membership classes and one day the Pastor asked me if I wanted to teach a class. I of course said yes and the Lord revealed to me what he wanted presented last week. Since it has been so long since I have taught in Spanish I must admit I was a little nervous but I was confident that God would speak even through some of my Spanish grammar errors.

For two weeks I prayed and prepared and it went very well, but now I feel, depleted and weak. While preparing I was constantly talking to God and searching for God's will, now I just feel, blah. In my heart I know what I need to do, start praying continually again and waiting on the Lord. "Be still and know that I am God," (Psalm 46:10) comes to my mind right now. And I will. It just seems strange. I want so much to be used by the Lord that when he is using me I feel great, but when He "pauses" for me to consider what He actually has done, I am kind of like a little kid wanting more. Does this all make sense?

I love my Lord so much for what He has done for me. Part of me wishes I had never had any "falls" in my life so that would feel His Glory more, but another part of me knows that if I had not had the experiences I have had, then I would never had really appreciated what our Lord has done for me.

My focus needs to always be, "seek ye first the kingdom of God". (Matthew 6:33) When we are told to consider the birds of the air and the flowers of the fields (Luke 12:22-31) we are also told that we have "so little faith". And I don't think we should feel guilty for the little faith that we have, but I think we should be focusing more on the Kingdom of God a whole lot more then we do for "where our treasures is, that's where our heart is." (Luke 12:34) Don't you?

Request:
The we as members of His church focus more on His Kingdom and less about the things of this world.

Prayer:
Thank you Jesus for dying on the Cross for us and giving us the Holy Spirit to teach us and remind us of what you taught us about the Kingdom of God. We cherish every thought we have about being with you in eternity and desire only that everything that we do be worthy of your soon coming. Amen